the price of a pill

sometimes I forget about the pain

maybe cause I blacked out for days

daddy said it’s time for another way

let him down again for a mistake

invisible friends check just in case

even I see the differences in my face

lean into the hallucinations they gave

how do I tell them I need to be saved

take them down like a drill

this is the price of a pill

secrets are my best skill

they tell me it’s not real

murder myself based on doctor’s notes

I was already high when they diagnosed

the bottle is empty when I am a ghost

and I can’t abandon myself for the worst